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So the last month was an absolute failure. Here I am, stepping forth and accepting my call, and talking about trusting in Christ, while I'm falling apart. Alcohol, cigarettes, pizza, and all while I sit around moping about how I'm so worthless. After all, if I wasn't so worthless, then I wouldn't be falling apart. Maybe if I had an ounce of Pastor Laura's confidence, skill, and faith, I wouldn't be a helpless mess. And all of this was getting me nowhere.

I've started reading this book: You're Already Amazing: Embracing Who You Are, Becoming All God Created You to Be by Holly Gerth. It's been talking about how it's okay to have weaknesses. It talks about how God gave you strengths, and you should focus on your strengths not your weaknesses. Sometimes even a situation that would normally be a weakness can be turned around into a situation that uses your strengths if you approach it differently. It's not about what you can't do; it's about what you can. I've been reading it in small sections, it doesn't strike me as a read it quickly book.

Which brings me to today. I've got to stop this. It's not healthy. I know if I center in Christ, everything else will fall into place, so that's what I want to do. I'm going to write about my journey as I try to center deeper in Christ.